Don’t Look.

“Don’t look”, I tell them.  Don’t look at me too closely. It makes me uncomfortable. Do not perceive me,  Don’t, even when I demand attention.  Look at me like an impressionist painting. Look at the idea of me I feed you.  Ten different masks, At Least one will do. Look from afar,  Do not come…

MPDG

MANIC PIXIE DREAM GIRL The Manic-pixie dream girl,Bubbly & shiny darkness,Polar paradox personified.A gush of wind, carrying their wildest fantasies,Her fragmented yellows they see,"Come, bring your light to me." MPDG, she's aware this time.'I will not fix you.'A warning, carrying lessons from hindsight.She ignores the feeling,Always chasing the high.When they leave, she can't even cry.…

Mirror

Mirror, Mirror on the wall. You've seen me drown, You've seen me fall. I see me in you,You see you in me,We're one and the same. You're not just a mirror on the wall. Mirror, Mirror, closest of them all,You reflect my struggles,My fears, truths and lies.I said you understand me,I don't need to hide.I…

Suffer/Silence.

I suffer in silence,You wouldn't ever see me cry.I call it personal suffering,public display is for the weakHide hide, tears underneath the blanket.what if mother sees?Weak she'd say. you're too weak for this world child. I suffer in silence.Face turned away when there's a tear in the eyes,I suffer in silence, hiding in my lover's…

Dance of the Devi- Spiritual possession in the Kumaon Himalayas: Observations, stories and insights of a non-believer on the field (Part 2).

Despite the delays, the nighttime puja was an interesting experience and I, along with the other villagers, waited for it for its entertainment value. I know that using the word ‘entertaining’ for a puja is blasphemous but the reader will agree with me once they are done with this segment. After the Aarti and Dinner,…

Story of a Dream

3025 AD.The Hindu dharma has the concept of cyclical time. I have lived a lot of lives in different times and ages but it’s something I have never been able to grasp. It sure is extremely difficult to understand and maybe that is why most civilizations and historians see time as a linear, unidirectional entity.…

Essay writing entry: Advancing careers and lost homes

Home for me has never been a place nor has it been a person, it’s been a temporary feeling of belonging and I chase that with each new move. It’s just like Halsey sang in Ghost, “I’m searching for something that I can't reach.” It’s Hiraeth, a longing for a home that never was, probably that never will be, but is an ideal to wish for anyway.

The Romantics

The Romantics A morbid longing for the past,They have a soul that worships transience,stirring with emotions that don't last.Eyes, wandering clouds in deep blue skies,A heart that only desires beauty.Boundless, in love they demand fluidity. Their voyages, telling stories untold.Persecuting religion, they claim to be bold.For years they have been admired.Their charm is all we…

Burn

Do not thrust your god upon me.Haunt me with tales of rebellion.I've committed sins, banish me, I'm Circe.But do not bind me to the rules of your religion.For I am the infernal blaze, I know no reason. I have walked the line, I will do it again.Nail me to the stake, I do not fear…

A Poet’s Heart

People tell me I have a poet's heart.I don't know what that means,Except that I have waited for days,Waited for inspiration to turn into art.My heart is driven by excess and desire.In poems, I am an idealist, a charming Liar.In love, I am endlessly chasing men I admire. I wonder if it's a curse,To have…

Trickster

Trickster Poem by Daisiesandbooksatmidnight Three masks, Of a trickster.Identities, call them personas.Theatre masks, The world is a play for you.And you, you're the Shakespearean hero. Waking through planned tragedy. Five acts, They are convincing. Moral compass, you've thrown it away,It doesn't work for you anymore. Ten fingers,More deceiving than the face. How much do you…

The death of a star

The death of a star, poem by Daisiesandbooksatmidnight Distant, Dying, Burning from inside,You're illuminating the night.A minute speck of dustamong countless others,Suspended in the dark ether.Unapproachable,Yet unavoidable.Visible, you are.That's what they say.Slowly,You're getting engulfed in the fireSlowly, I can see you dying.You aren't lonely,You have convinced yourself.Suspended in dark oblivion,You're happy, at least you shine.They…

A little life by Hanya Yanagihara| Book Review

Name: A little lifeAuthor: Hanya YanagiharaPublisher: Picador, MacmillanYear: 2015Genre: Literary fiction, Bildungsroman My rating: 5/5 Synopsis: When four classmates from a small Massachusetts college move to New York to make their way, they're broke, adrift, and buoyed only by their friendship and ambition. There is kind, handsome Willem, an aspiring actor; JB, a quick-witted, sometimes…

The best books I read in 2020 part 1

2020 has been a pretty solid reading year for me. I've read 35 books with almost 27 full length books and the rest novellas. I read a lot of average books which weren't as impactful, I also read a few terrible books that I don't want to read again. But this particular blog is for…

Small Acts of freedom by Gurmehar Kaur, Book Review

Name: Small Acts of freedomAuthor: Gurmehar KaurPublisher: Penguin Books, India.Genre: MemoirMy rating: 4/5 In February 2017, Gurmehar Kaur, a nineteen-year-old student, joined a peaceful campaign after violent clashes at a Delhi University college. As part of the campaign, Kaur's post made her the target of an onslaught of social media vitriol. Kaur, the daughter of…

God of the Sullied. Book review

Name: God of the SulliedAuthor: Gaurav SharmaPublisher: Think Tank booksRating: 4/5 Amazon link: Here I got this book when the author had come to my college for the promotion of his book. I got it for 100 Rs. Pretty cheap right? I was very happy since it was signed too. Completed the book in almost…

About Grace by Anthony Doerr book review

Name - About GraceAuthor - Anthony DoerrPublisher- Harper CollinsYear- 2005 David winkler lives in Anchorage, a small town in Alaska. Since childhood, winkler has dreams that turn out to be true in the future. When David falls in love with a married woman, he runs away with her to Ohio to start a family. His…

Animal farm Book Review

I’ve been really interested in politics and history lately. So last month, I read the Russian Revolution to compensate for it not being taught to us back in high school. Anyway, I read about it and I was deeply intrigued. I realised that all these revolutions started out with such great ideologies that seemed perfect…

Online classes and have they been successful?

The world has been on a standstill ever since the cases of COVID-19 started increasing globally. The virus, although not so deadly, is highly contagious. As a result, governments throughout the world have been forced to shut down public institutions like schools and colleges. Each and every industry in the world has suffered from this…

The Secret History, Book Review

"Beauty is terror, what we call beautiful, we quiver before it"  Name: The secret history Year: 1992 Author: Donna tartt Rating: 4/5 Set amidst the hills in a small  town of Hampden in Vermont, New England. The secret history revolves around six students of classical studies who study at the elite Hampden college. The books…

folklore by Taylor swift, album review.

Taylor swift dropped a new surprise album and WE ARE NOT CALM. When Taylor posted the "Biiig isolation" picture, who would've thought it was LITERALLY a very big and busy isolation period for her?  Okay now let's get down to the basic information. On  23 July, Taylor posted on all her media platforms that she…

A Nazi Nightmare

Long before the arrival of the Nazis in our small village, the general environment of it betrayed the knowledge of it's impending doom. It was a shared knowledge that our village would be one of the firsts to face the brunt of the German attacks. Despite my boyish ignorance, I had also sensed the uneasy…

My reading journey

Hello readers, I'm soniya. A 19 year old  psychology major, reader and sometimes a writer/poet. I love words, I love telling stories and reading them. This is my first post on my second blog. I deleted my three year old blog a few weeks ago. More on that later. At this point in my life,…